empyreus: (foolish)
( Oct. 9th, 2013 07:42 pm)
Things that make me sad: the fact that [livejournal.com profile] yuletide no longer makes me excited. Now I just feel worried and anxious and guilty when the brainstorming and signup posts go up. Why? Because it reminds me of how badly I've lost faith in my skills. Logically, I know I haven't suddenly turned into the worst writer in the world, but it doesn't help. The little voice in the back of my head that says "There are a thousand new writers and they're all cleverer than you and they all know the fandom better than you" keeps getting louder when it should be getting weaker. It makes me feel old, too, because not being able to be excited over challenges and new fandoms also makes me feel like I can't keep up with fandom. Everything moves so fast, and everything is ficced/vidded/capped/gifsetted/meta'd within what feels like seconds. And I stand there thinking "Oh. I've already missed the train on new stuff and can't do anything with it/inspired by it because it's old hat by now", and for some inexplicable reason it makes me feel nervous and inadequate.

I feel old. And out of touch. And like I'm on the outside looking in. And like I should just shut up instead of complaining about non-issues.
I've decided to sit [livejournal.com profile] yuletide out this year, and it already feels weird. This would have been the ninth year in a row, so it does sting a little, but I realized that I just don't have the time or the energy (fannish or otherwise) to do it justice this year. It feels like I'm already running on fumes.

I may end up participating in Yuletide Madness, though.

This post almost ended up beginning with the words "I fail at updating", but then I decided against stating the obvious. *g* I'm still here and I read my Flist almost daily, I've just slipped into lurker mode. I have at least one fic I should get around to posting, but somehow I never manage to get it done. Oh well, one fine day. :) Preferably before the holidays, unless the DDOS attacks continue.

Speaking of the holidays: it's the 4th of December and there's still no snow here. None. There've been a few flurries, but the snow has always melted away during the day. I can't remember the last time this happened, or the last time the autumn was so unseasonably warm - there's barely been any night frost. Instead, we've had dense mist and endless rain, and while the mist is quite beautiful (particularly when paired with the first light of a sunrise), it feel all wrong. The lack of snow is also making the lack of light more apparent. We're down to roughly five hours of daylight, and without snow to reflect the light, the days seem even shorter and more depressing. It's dark when I go to work and dark when I get home, and since I sit with my back to the window, I don't even see the light during the day. Meh.
empyreus: (academia)
( Jan. 3rd, 2011 04:39 pm)
So. I suppose I should be making a reveal post re: [livejournal.com profile] yuletide. I've been offline for most of the week after Christmas, hence the silence. I only wrote one fic for Yuletide, because my muses wouldn't cooperate enough for me to manage any Treats. (That, and I was online only sporadically during Christmas, too.)

The fic I wrote is A Way Out (American Gods), for [personal profile] d_generate_girl. I like how it turned out, even though I hadn't intended to go with that part of the prompt at first. At some point, the story just got me in a headlock and dragged me off, and all I could do was go with it. I ended up doing such weird research for it (most of which didn't end up in the fic), and along the way, I was fortunate enough to encounter some wonderful coincidences. And I got to splash about in Norse mythology again, which was great. (I think one of the weirder impulses I got during the writing was to seek out Peter Madsen's fantastic Valhalla series again. I grew up reading them and loved the stories and the artwork.) What was interesting was that another writer also did a take on the same part of the prompt, and that one was very different: Making a Plan by vocal_bard . Go read that one too, it's great.

I'll post the YT fic here a bit later, but in the meantime, you can read the fic here (please note that the fic contains material that can be triggery - it deals with suicide).

The fic I received was the wonderful Animals (District 9) by [livejournal.com profile] floranna, and I suggest you go read it now. I really like the way it lets us have a look at Christopher's life pre-movie, and how he ended up being a single father. (Also, what are the odds that I end up with a Finnish writer? *g*)

I also received a YT Treat: a lovely introspective Nikolai/Kirill piece - Skin Deep (Eastern Promises) by [livejournal.com profile] cousinshelley.

And because no holiday season is complete without [livejournal.com profile] lotr_sesa, I also wrote LotR fic (and dear god, I just remembered I never posted my [livejournal.com profile] sons_of_gondor Halloween fic over here in my journal *facepalm*). In that challenge, [livejournal.com profile] erfan_starled wrote Explorers, Past and Present for me. Yay for Glorfindel/Celeborn fic! The masterlist for that challenge is here.
Dear Yuletide writer,
first off: thank you in advance. You're writing rare fandom fic! For me!

Don't fret, I love you already )
First off, the important stuff: Happy birthday, [livejournal.com profile] littlemimm!
(And my profuse apologies to all the people whose birthdays I have missed. :/ Damn you, LJ, bring back the birthday reminders.)

In other, more random news:

- I've totally forgot to post the fic I wrote for the 2010 [livejournal.com profile] sons_of_gondor Trick or Treat exchange. And related to that: go read the fic that [livejournal.com profile] afra_schatz wrote for me: Incessant (Bean/Marton and tattoos, oh my) because it's made of win.

- Many, many thanks to the person or persons unknown for the [livejournal.com profile] mome_awards nominations! I'm very flattered. :)

- Oh gah, it's that time of the year again. I need to tackle the Yuletide Signup Form Of DOOM posthaste, but I can't even figure out what to offer, let alone what to ask for. Halp.

- I'm far too amused by the fact that the hotel I'll be staying at during a course-related thingy this week is called Hotel Arthur. I'm completely serious. That's the name. Hopefully the staircases are paradox-free, and hopefully the gravity stays normal.

- I know I've forgot to mention something, but I can't figure out what it is. Oh well, that's what EtAs are for.
The Yuletide Fandom Nominations are open. (TBH, I don't know if I'll nominate any. The ones I might think of will either a) get nominated by umpty other people or b) be too intimidating* for me to write in. Or c) both.)

Also, in shiny news: thank you so much for the Yorkie v-gifts, [livejournal.com profile] caras_galadhon and [livejournal.com profile] savageseraph! ♥!

*Then again, I tend to end up writing in fandoms I've claimed I'm scared of writing in, so... And one of the Laws of Yuletide seems to be "Yea, verily shalt thou end up with the fandom you added to your signup for the hell of it".
So the Yuletide stories have been posted and the rec posts have taken over my FList. All is as it usually is this time of year.

I can't help but feel a bit... well, to say 'sulky' would be an exaggeration, but there's a slight sense of dissatisfaction when I think about the fic I wrote. It seemed to go down okay with the recipient, but that's about it. Of course, it's the single story in a small fandom that most people won't have heard of, but I still feel a bit disappointed. I know it's inevitable that many stories get passed over for many reasons, but it's so disheartening to see your story sit there with its single comment and low hit count.

However, there's also been a lot of shiny for me in Yuletide this year. I got a wonderful Eastern Promises fic, Aftermath (go read it!), as my main gift, and THREE Yuletide Madness gift fics. Three, people! Two were Eastern Promises (Soft and Bright and Simple) and one was I, Lucifer (!!!) (Trust) . Dear writers, whoever you are, I love you all so much!

Oh, one last note about Yuletide: I'll be away (out of the country and effectively netless) during the author reveal, so there may be some lag in thanking people.

I also participated in (and helped run) [livejournal.com profile] lotr_sesa this year, and I can already reveal which fic I wrote for that one, since you post your own fics directly to the comm. Mine was Mapping Desire (a Faramir/Aragorn fic I wrote for [livejournal.com profile] savageseraph, and the one I received was the lovely Unintended Consequences by [livejournal.com profile] savageseraph (Boromir/Faramir, so OTP yay *g*).

And now, I think I'll go back to vegging out in front of the telly and eating too much chocolate. (And watching the snow fall outside. There's over a foot on the ground, probably a foot and a half in places, and we got about four inches more just during the night.) Hope you're all lazy and well. :)
empyreus: (yuletide2009 by chomiji)
( Dec. 22nd, 2009 03:38 am)
Yuletide fic posted, woot! And with a massive 26 minutes and 45 seconds to go, too.

For my next trick, I think I shall fall into bed. Tomorrow Today Tomorrow is gift-hunting day. And it's picture-posting day, too, since I have some pictures of the wonderfully snowy and wintry weather we're currently enjoying that I want to share.

Oh, and a mostly belated Happy Solstice! We had 4 hours and 40 minutes of daylight today, so the longest night is indeed long here.
Dear Yuletide Writer,
I already love you. You're writing obscure fandom fic for me! :)

I hope I haven't reduced you to a gibbering wreck. The suggestions I included in my sign-up are just that - suggestions. You don't need to follow them slavishly, and if a pairing inspires a different plot or idea than the one I suggested, then by all means go ahead and write that one.

A few general things to keep in mind when writing for me )

Fandoms and specific requests/extra details )

I hope this doesn't make you fret. I'm quite easy to please, really. Just make sure the characters are in character and that the story isn't wonky language-wise, and I'm happy. Most importantly, have fun writing!
My letter is on its way, I've just been very busy. So don't fret, I'm not intentionally trying to keep you in the dark. :)

(In other news, I still haven't looked at my assignment. Eek. Ok, so the fact that I only got up two hours ago and spent all day yesterday netless might have something to do with it. *g*)
empyreus: (yuletide2008 by liviapenn)
( Nov. 4th, 2009 08:24 pm)
Omg, the [livejournal.com profile] yuletide signups are open. *glee* Time to start wibbling over which fandoms to offer and what to request, plus agonize over how many fandoms I've never even heard of and how few fandoms I can offer.

Oh great, another timesink. *g* I have so much I need to be getting on with, but come on, this is Yuletide, people.

Btw, am I the only one not getting any comment notifications? At first I thought I'd accidentally disabled comment emailing on a recent challenge post (I thought no one had bothered to comment, but it turns out I just wasn't getting notifications), but despite enabling comment tracking, I'm still not getting any notifications. Wtf, LJ?
I just skimmed the list of rejected fandoms over on [livejournal.com profile] yuletide_admin and I think I hurt something laughing. People really don't seem to understand what "obscure" means.

Some highlights on the list included:
Babylon 5 (!!)
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
The Dark Knight
Due South
Harry Potter (!!! This happens every sodding year!)
Iron Man (movie)
Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett - Good Omens
RPF - Lord of the Rings (!!! Can't.breathe.dying.of.lol.)
The Sentinel
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine (!)
Star Trek: Voyager
Stephenie Meyer - Twilight series (!!!!!! WHAT.)
Supernatural (Aahahahaha.)
Ultimate X-men (comic)

(EtA: Okay, I misunderstood a bit. It's a list of fandoms rejected over the years, not just this year. (Still makes me laugh horribly, mind.))

And now, back to freaking out over all the stuff needing to be done.
empyreus: (polar bears hug)
( Dec. 27th, 2008 08:02 pm)
I'm sorry for the lengthy silence. While I've been celebrating Christmas with my family and had my laptop with me, I haven't been online that much. I've mostly been eating, reading, eating, slacking and doing sudokus, eating and watching tv. Oh, and did I mention eating? Ugh.

Now, the traditional holiday fic exchange rundown:
I participated in three holiday exchanges this year: the FaramirFiction Midwinter Swap, [livejournal.com profile] lotr_sesa and, of course, [livejournal.com profile] yuletide.

For the Midwinter swap I got a great Boromir/Faramir fic and for [livejournal.com profile] lotr_sesa [livejournal.com profile] talullahred wrote me a wonderful Faramir/Beregond fic (yay rare pairing!).

For Yuletide, I got an utterly fantastic Prophecy fic, called Progression of Views. It's just gorgeous, and the writer has nailed both Lucifer's and Gabriel's voices. Lovely.

My own Yuletide fic seemed to go down well with the recipient, but I'd like to take a childish and petulant moment out to pout a little over the lack of attention from others. I know it's only been two days and that the fandom is very small and/or unknown, but it still rankles. Or maybe I'm just grumpy. (I can't help but feel that my failure to include a summary has something to do with this, though I should add that I have been known to grasp at straws in many different situations.)

Oh, and [livejournal.com profile] azewewish wrote me Boondock Saints fic: Higher Calling. *loves*

Other news:
I still haven't thanked people for the lovely cards I've received. Thank you so much, [livejournal.com profile] azewewish, [livejournal.com profile] ribby, [livejournal.com profile] soawen, [livejournal.com profile] shalna and [livejournal.com profile] glenthebunny! And thank you, [livejournal.com profile] discord26, for the lovely virtual snowglobe!

Speaking of fic: I have a few fics which I just realized I still haven't posted. Hmm. I'll have to do something about that once I get back to my own place and am able to focus once more. (And when I don't have family running about trying to read over my shoulder.)
empyreus: (yuletide2008 by liviapenn)
( Dec. 21st, 2008 04:18 am)
Upload number 1404-.

Thank god for the one-hour extension. I wasn't just down to the wire if you went with the intended deadline, it was cutting into me. 11 minutes past the original deadline, 49 minutes to go with the new one.

And for my next trick, I shall fall into bed.
This icon is so appropriate right now.

True to form, I'm still working on my [livejournal.com profile] yuletide fic, even though deadline is practically screaming me in the face.

Ahhahahaha omgwtf Yuletide.

Did I mention I was up until four last night finishing another challenge fic? Because I was.
Last call for holiday cards! If you want a card from me, drop a comment on this post. (All comments are screened.) If you need my address for whatever reason, email me or comment on this post.

I owe lots of people comments, too. *sigh*

And now the random bit: I swear, my subconscious throws up the oddest things sometimes. Last night, I dreamt I was attending a seminar held in a pastel-hued cafe or fast food place. The teacher? Daniel Craig. o_O The group was big, and we were apparently tasked with analysing ragged ad posters pasted onto a brick wall outside a shabby corner shop (which I think was in New York, but I'm not sure.) I even remember some of the ads, because I stood explaining them to my study partner: one for Kool cigarettes, and a black and yellow one advertising a seminar on murder. (It made sense at the time.)

Back at the seminar, I argued with my new partner, who was a friend I haven't seen in years. At one point, our teacher (still Daniel Craig) walked up to the desk where I was sitting, said "You're clearly not making any progress, so I'll take your coffee" and took the mug I was holding. (Oddly, it was a favourite mug of mine.) He then turned and and walked away, and that was when I realized that: a) his hair was wet, like he'd just had a shower, and b) he was only wearing a pale blue evening shirt, which left his legs and a tiny sliver of his buttocks visible. My first reaction was to give him the finger, but I caught myself and calmly noted "I won't do that, because he'd just turn and catch me at it". I may have sassed at him in the dream as well.

I have no idea where that came from. Well, apart from the seminar thing, which probably had to do with the fact that I'd planned to see my thesis supervisor today and ask about the extended farce that the supervision of my work has turned into. (I went to see her, told her I wasn't getting anywhere since the advice I was getting from her was contradictory, and I think I got things cleared up a bit. I also managed to sneak in a few barbs coated in sweet phrasing, and I frankly don't care if she caught them or not.)

I also had a second dream (which means I must have woken up at some point), about being in a dark gift shop in Edinburgh, looking for a specific kind of necklace with feathers and blades (wtf), all while being a bit rushed, since I had to be on time to go see Iron Man with a bloke I know IRL and dislike intensely. I disliked him in the dream, too, but I was still rushed. I kept getting sidetracked, once by a grizzled long-haired rocker who wanted to show off a bondage swing made from thin strips of black leather decorated with glass beads, and several times by (adorable) members of staff who wanted to flirt with me. Oh, and I had to find a specific kind of tea in a particular tin, and couldn't. I suddenly noticed I was late, ran out of the store and went tearing down a steep stone staircase toward a back street that I knew was Hill Place. Never mind the fact that there are no stone steps leading down anywhere on Hill Place, unless you count the front steps of the buildings, none of which are that steep. I woke up before I'd reached the end of the stairs. No idea what that was about, either. I rarely remember my dreams (sadly), but when I do, they tend to be rather bizarre. (Not that I am complaining about the half-naked Daniel Craig, oh no.)

In other news: O NOES [livejournal.com profile] yuletide and the other challenges I'm participating in. *deep breath* I can do this. I've done it before, I can do it now.
Dear [livejournal.com profile] yuletide Writer,
first off: I'll love you no matter which fandom you pick. You're writing obscure fandom fic! For me!

Some general tips and hints: please proofread/beta your story. I'm a linguaphile and I care deeply about proper grammar, spelling and punctuation. Other than that, I'm rather easy to please. Just make sure the characters are in character and I'm happy. If you decide to write smut, hats off to you. *g* I'm rather easy-going on that front, but I'm not fond of fluff (please don't have the characters call each other 'baby' or 'lover' or similar cloying names) or blackest depravity. A bit of kink can be very tasty, though. I'll read most things, as long as the characters act realistically. Wee EtA )

I'm a slasher at heart, but I don't mind well-written het or gen. Don't feel like you have to pair up two characters if you don't see the pairing or if you don't feel like writing slash (or het, for that matter). Write what you see, what makes you happy, and don't freak out if you can't follow my prompts to the letter. The thought of fic in any of these fandoms is enough to make me wibble with joy.

Fandom-specific notes )

And finally: Have fun writing! Don't write what you think I'll like, write what you like.
empyreus: (yuletide2008 by liviapenn)
( Nov. 11th, 2008 09:16 pm)
Omg the [livejournal.com profile] yuletide assignment just dropped into my inbox.

I haven't dared to look at it yet. Halp.
Title: Decisions
Author: [livejournal.com profile] empy
Fandom: Boondock Saints
Pairing: Connor/Murphy if you squint
Rating: PG for some mentions of violence
Disclaimer: The characters belong to Troy Duffy and B.D.S. Productions Inc. I just mess around with them and make no money off it.
Feedback: is always welcome
Note: Written as a Yuletide Treat for [livejournal.com profile] mjules for the 2007 [livejournal.com profile] yuletide challenge. Also available here.

Decisions )
Title: Saint's Progress
Author: [livejournal.com profile] empy
Fandom: Boondock Saints
Pairing: Connor/Murphy if you squint
Rating: PG for some mentions of violence
Disclaimer: The characters belong to Troy Duffy and B.D.S. Productions Inc. I just mess around with them and make no money off it.
Feedback: is always welcome
Note: Written for [livejournal.com profile] mjules for the 2007 [livejournal.com profile] yuletide challenge. Also available here.

Saint's Progress )


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